She hates the fact that he lacked that sensitivity. She wasn't sure if he was just being insensitive, or as her best friend put it- trying to give her space, but she hates it just the same.
| lucky the pic is a guy. |
She dislikes the fact that the relationship graft is worse than plateau, its heading to ground zero, at a rate slower than death.
She does not like LOL. Every reply to her ym, her sms, her email, was always preceded with LOL. Even when she was upset, he'd first reply with an LOL, and that makes her blood simmer hotter.
She resents the commitment that comes with the relationship, like walking back from classes together. It makes her feel suffocated. Maybe sometimes, just perhaps maybe, people would leave her alone, with some space to breathe.
She detests that she felt like a wife, especially when he tells her to cook, which she is not fully fond of, to begin with. She's a girlfriend, not a wife. There's a difference.
She despises the fact that her heart wavers. Hates the fact that at times, she couldn't take a breath without him, but the how the next moment the mere thought of being together causes her breathing to cease.
She loathes the helplessness she felt when her heart beats not for the right person, hates the guilt that she feels for putting up with such lies.
| love>hate, hate>love? |
Sometimes these feelings overwhelm her too much, that she thought :
would ending what they have now provide a better solution? Because living in pretense can prove to be tiring, and her battery's almost all worn out.
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